I’m slowly coming to the end of a fairly long and intensive training phase and I’m feeling like I’m going to need my litte break over Christmas and New Year. Some athletes say they train every day of the year, even on Christmas Day, I think that’s a load of bollocks and can’t see how that kind of training can be beneficial, but everyone trains differently. I will tuck into my turkey knowing I’ve got a hell of a good block of training under my belt and am prepared for the even harder phases to come in February/March.
After 9 weeks of training I’m starting to struggle a bit so I know I’m ready for some rest, so that I’m ready for the next 52 weeks of training up to the World Championships. Sport should be a struggle though, that is the whole point. It’s an enjoyable struggle, against your body, against your opponents, against your inner demons, against all kinds of things. If you’re not struggling as a sports person then you aren’t pushing hard enough, maybe the sport isn’t stretching you to your limits or you’re working in your comfort zone. Struggling is about ambition, pressure, desire to improve, wanting to be the best – it’s not easy. The constant struggle is possibly a reason why many top sports people go off the rails, due to the immense pressure and stress that comes with trying to be the best in the world, it takes enormous mental strength and character to endure the tolls of training and competing. Tiger Woods is the latest to succumb.
I have struggled for 15 years to get to and stay at the top of my sport, and I wouldn’t swap it for anything. The highs and lows are miles apart and I’ve come close to self destruction a few times, either through pushing myself too hard in training or through depression bought on by jealousy of other people’s lives. When you believe that what you are struggling and working so hard for is the most important thing in the world, everything is easy. But if what you are struggling for seems pointless or insignificant, it can be soul destroying – That’s the fine line professional sports people tred.
On another note, I’m glad I missed the Amir Kahn fight for the UKA Awards Dinner – much better value for money.
Off to see about a new throwing frame on Friday – exciting.