Weighing Things Up

I’m sure,
then I’m not so sure.
No, I’m sure I’m sure.
maybe there’s a different way,
another road
that leads to a better place.

Yeah, I’m not sure again.


It’s been a couple of weeks since my CT scan and I’m no further forward on what’s happening, or more importantly what is going to happen. Things seem to move pretty slow in my medical circles which can be frustrating but I guess my condition isn’t life-threatening and I know that the team want to make the best recommendations possible for me. I understand the Professor wants an unusually detailed report from my CT scan which is why the results are taking so long to process. I’m aware the clock is ticking but we can’t rush this thing as it’s a bit more serious than having a hernia. Most sports people wait til after they retire to have joints replaced, so as usual I’m doing things backside first.

I’m not just sitting  on my backside though, I’m in good shape and will be in Crystal Palace for the inaugural UKA National Disability Championships on 26th July. It’s the first time UKA have organised their own disability competition so it will be interesting, the latest fad is for inclusive events, so it’s part of the Crystal Palace meeting. I’ve never been a big fan of inclusion as I think it just leads to problems and the lower disability groups being squeezed out. Also, the differences between able-bodied sport and disability sport leads to lots of confusion for organisers, officials and spectators. I guess the positive angle is that it gets disability more into the limelight, but only a few disability events will get covered and included in the main meeting, thats not inclusion for me – its tokenism.

Going to the Ceedars School’s Sports day this afternoon, they are a sports college and are doing great work in guiding young disabled people into sport. In athletics there are so many changes happening that its hard to keep up, news that London and Loughborough are now the HiPacs is no real suprise, UKA want to invest their money where they think it will be most effective which is fine, but you won’t find me moving down south to access support services. I have everything I need up here and it has served me well for the last 15 years in sport, I just don’t think uprooting athletes from a stable environment and taking them away from there coaches, family and friends to go to a centre and eat, breathe and sleep sport is the answer. Anyway, if the big medal winning stars stay put, what are they gonna do? An athlete centred approach is more costly and harder to manage but its what we need.


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